I am financially stable. I can still save a little from my monthly salary. I can pay for my life insurance and indulge in some little girlie luxuries. My family turns to me in times of financial crisis. My daughter goes to a good private school. I can provide her most of her material whims if I can afford it.
My fiance’ is financially stable by his standards. He doesn’t pay for some health or life insurance. His family turns to him in times of financial crisis. He doesn’t have anyone to support financially. He buys things that he likes.
When we started dating, money was out of the issue. Now that we’re planning for our big day, I think that we both need to assess our financial standing.
He gave me his ATM for me to do the budgeting. I don’t think it’s too early to do that since I’ll be doing this role next year. I’m having a little hard time though. I realize that he has a penchant for good food while I indulge in beauty luxuries.
Like a mother, Miel nurtured me back to health from Saturday to Monday. He cooked delicious foods for me, did the laundry for me, pressed my clothes, cleaned the apartment and massaged me to sleep.
“Sakitin ka,” he said. Yes, I notice that my health is not that good this year. I always suffer from upper respiratory infecton and urinary tract infection. It must be my preference to eating sweet foods.
I’ve never been taken cared of by a lover in my whole life. I love you, Miel….. and thank you!
I was still at the middle of a meeting at 6PM yesterday when Miel informed me through a text message that he was at the market to buy something to cook for dinner. Going to the wet market is one of the things that I hate doing. Of course, if it’s a supermarket, I wouldn’t mind but the nearest supermarket is not that near. (I wonder if I could still shop at the supermarket after the wedding when our priority is to save as much for our future baby. If you’re keen on the budget, the wet market is still the best place to buy fresh yet less costly foods.)
When I arrived at my apartment, I fixed my bed. When I’m in a hurry, I usually leave my bed the way I slept on it. Miel arrived after a few minutes. He asked if I know how to cook sinigang. I said that I have an idea. Truth is, I was trying to have a recollection of how my mother cooks it. Miel took charge of cooking the rice; it’s something that I have yet to learn. We cook rice on the stove since a rice cooker is not practical to use considering that we’re only cooking a little rice just enough for the two of us. Besides, the cost of electricity is horrible!
To cut the story short, Miel appreciated the sinigang na hipon that I cooked for him. It was one of the best meals I ever had. We even had some seaweeds as side dish. We both love sea foods and it’s something that he has yet to know about me.
Miel wants us to share a plate while eating. I feel so uncomfortable at the start. I am not used to sharing my plate with someone.
I know it’s symbolic and the reason why he wants us to practice it is to create a stronger bond as partners or perhaps, as future husband and wife.
I cleaned my closet last night. I got rid of PV’s things, mostly underwears. Memories of our happy days reminded me. For some strange reasons, I missed him so much.
I know I have to get rid of his memories. But the love is deeply engrained in my heart; it just can’t fade away. Maybe if it was not a one-way street, I would have been the happiest person on this planet. He said that he loved me, that he was serious on me; but he never did the loving things that is expected from a lover.
Miel, my present boyfriend and fiance’, and I went to the chapel early this morning. It was my 2nd time to wake up that early and go to the chapel with a lover. The 1st time was with Changki’s dad way back in 1998.
I feel so secured when I’m with Miel. Sometimes, I can feel that I still love PV but I can also feel that I’m falling for Miel each day.