The Good in Not Being on the Frontline

I used to feel bad about not being given the project team leader role because I used to equate excellence with being on the front line. I used to complain silently about how I wanted to do things my way instead of being a follower. Not that I didn’t get leadership roles anymore as there were still projects under my championship but I ached for BIG projects that could spell a difference in terms of my annual salary increase and bonus.

I was that competitive in terms of financial reward and there were times when I would approach my boss to tell him that I thought I deserved a better grade/increase/promotion.

2015 gave me the chance to work with challenging projects and it opened my eyes on the right behavior and expectations. I realize that despite the failure of my project last year, I am still calm and unassuming; a behavior that is quite different two years ago when I fought for my project and justified that it really worked just because I expected a high salary increase and bonus.

One of the executives here said that more than getting the Most Valuable Player award, the championship is more important. He said that employees who eye the MVP are those who anticipate for the reward while employees who aim to be champions are those who are after enhancing their skills. I think I belong now to those employees who aim to be champion.

Like what I said earlier, 2015 gave me the chance to be a better engineer in terms of job performance and because I do not work on the front line, I have the liberty to do things that I enjoy at work like polishing my skills without thinking of the next meeting or conference.

Being not on the front line excuses me for going home at 5:00 PM if I want to. I have more time with my children and I am very hands on to them. I can read books on the weekend without checking my company email for updates. I can go on vacation leave because I don’t belong to any group who regularly meet with the executives.