Steep

Note: My personal interpretation for this song way back 2002.

Softly, gently

I will let you down

‘Cause I don’t love you

In the same way now

A lot of things has happened for the past two years. The straw that broke the camel’s back was when you failed to do what was expected of you. I still love you, yes, but not as strong as it was two years ago.

I can hold you

But not with lover’s arms

‘Cause you are more of

A brother to me now

My heart secretly belongs to someone else now. Ironically, that someone else is not even aware that my feelings for him exist. This hidden feelings for someone else affects my emotions for you.

‘Cause I can lie next to you

But I can’t lie to you

I’ve always been honest about my thoughts and opinion but you never cared. You always think that I’m just passing through a difficult stage in my life.

(Chorus)

So walk into the sun and watch me

Run into the rain

For you, the future’s easy, so don’t weep

For me, it’s getting steep…

You have better chances than me of meeting someone better. Actually, I don’t feel any better than the rest of you. To be honest, I don’t even think that I stand a chance with anybody.

I loved you for

Exactly who you are

And I’d say we’ve come

The nearest yet by far

‘Cause I can lie next to you

But I can’t lie to you

Love, the love that’s been suffocating me, poisoning me and slowly killing me. It’s not fair to be treated any lesser by the man who should be putting me to the pedestal and to be disregarded by this someone who thinks I don’t deserve him.

(Chorus)

So walk into the sun and watch me

Run into the rain

For you, the future’s easy, so don’t weep

For me, it’s getting…

Steeper

From where the dark that’s where I want to be

Steeper

From going somewhere you won’t want to see

I can feel that I’m going through the downward spiral. It’s a depression that you don’t understand. You could have at least asked me if I needed professional help.

So walk into the sun and watch me

Run into the rain

For you, the future’s easy, so don’t weep

Yes, I will watch you

Walk into the sun and watch me

Run into the rain drops

For you, the future’s easy, so don’t weep

For me, it’s getting steep…

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That was my emotional and mental state of mind in 2002. I’m glad I’m done with all those emotional rollercoaster. LOL. I always remember people with scent, season and song. I just happen to hear this song this morning. Unrequited feelings, a girlfriend who was taken for granted, confused feelings—aaaawww! What a perfect recipe for young love! LOL!