The most wonderful thing in this world for me is
to experience motherhood. Not even a good career
could match to a baby’s warm smiles; it takes away my
exhaustion and hunger. I could have experienced the
joy that I’m feeling right now 12 years ago had I faced
motherhood with great courage then. Instead, I passed
the responsibility to my more than willing parents; now
that my daughter is with me, I find it hard to connect with her
sometimes. Good thing, my newborn bridges that gap between me
and my eldest.
It aint easy to be a mother especially if you were single and
independent most of your life. My newborn wakes up every two hours
for feeding and diaper change. Since I am on maternity leave, I
take charge of the baby. We got our baby a nanny but I realize that
before her, I should be the one to familiarize my baby’s moods,
activities and attitude. I tried breastfeeding my baby but my mammary
is not producing enough milk for him. A friend suggested Prolacta but
even that didn’t help.
I look at myself at the mirror and there I found an unfamiliar face:
a sweaty and tired face. But my eyes are kinder, my smile is sweeter
and my aura is more peaceful. Motherhood changes my perspective in life;
from a career woman, I am now a family woman.